Olivia Update

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Well I know many of you have been waiting to hear our story of how this beautiful little girl came to our family. First of all we don’t want anyone to think that we were keeping you in the dark, because literally all of this occurred within 24 hours! Let me repeat myself 24 hours!!! We’ve waited nearly 7 years and for all of it to come to a screeching halt so fast isn’t it ironic. With a having a few adoptions fall through, we’ve always said and wished that we would just get a phone call and not have to deal with the ups and downs. So here we are. We did just that, we had a conversation with a friend who knew about this birth mom who was dealing with some things and knew that it was best to place this baby girl in a home where she could be taken care of and loved. In no way can anyone place judgment upon her because she put herself aside and did what was best for her. She did what was best for this precious child, we are truly grateful for women like her that recognize this and become truly selfless.

Once we knew that we could meet Olivia, remember we were just informed of her on Thursday night, we talked about going to meet her sometime in the weekend. But needless to say we didn’t sleep much Thursday night and spent a long time on our knees asking for comfort and peace to know what to do. Casey came home from work on Friday afternoon and we just said we can’t wait until Sunday to see her we have to go now. So we made a couple phone calls and headed up to Logan to meet her. Of course nervous and yet excited not sure what was in store. Keep in mind with nothing in hand, no diapers, no car seat, and no food. We did have our nursery put together with a crib, and we all know I have a slight “shopping” addiction and somehow my cart always lead to the little girl section so needless to say I had a closet full of girl closes and about 5 boy things. So there’s bonus #1!! As we got closer and closer to where she was surprisingly we still were pretty calm. I mean really, you try and tell yourself what is there to be afraid of she’s 6 months old, what is she going to do……..scream, yell, kick??? (Which she didn’t do any of).

As we first saw her she was laughing and playing and we just walked up to her started playing and she went right to us, and we never put her down!!! We took her to the park to do the normal thing you do at a park right…….think about parenthood and what the heck you are doing!!!! She is truly amazing, we went back to the house and neither of us I think wanted to say it out loud for the fear that the other would think they were absolutely crazy. But we both said, if we take her home tonight that is insane!!! But we also said that we couldn’t let her out of our site and we couldn’t let her go! And yet the most insane part was that it didn’t feel crazy it felt normal, it felt like we were finally a family, if felt like we were complete and we now had the part of our heart that we didn’t even know was missing.

So yes, we came home that night with a little baby girl sleeping in our car. We called our families and told them the news..SUPRISE!!! And ever since we made up our minds that this little girl was ours and it just took a little longer for her to find us, we never looked back. It seems normal and complete. She already has us (especially daddy) wrapped around her fingers. She has an awesome personality and like I told Casey tonight, I love this stage, but I know that she is going to be hilarious and I can’t wait until she says the funniest things and reveals all of our family secrets to her nursery and primary teachers. We have been on cloud 9 (aaahhh clouds…reminds me of sleep….which reminds me of the sleep I used to get….sorry just had a moment) since that night. She belongs in our family. Its amazing how we love her so much I can’t even explain and how it feels completely normal and peaceful to have her in our home. Its hard to remember what I did of any importance before she came. We needed her as much as she needed us.

Here are a couple of thoughts I have already realized...

I’m willing to give up it all for Olivia

I knew Casey would be an amazing father but I truly had no idea he would be so incredible.

I loved the first time that I heard Casey from the other room changing her diaper (apparently a blow out) and I heard him say “I love you, I love you, I love you, or else I wouldn’t be doing this”

I have already done a million “motherly” things I swore I would never do!! One being have my child wear anything with Winnie the Poo on it, don’t panic I only allow her to wear diapers with them on it, I haven’t lost it all!!!

I love the dimples in her chunky fingers

She loves looking at herself in the mirror, especially in the mornings after her bath.

She’s a good eater, even though her mother is feeding her those awful baby peas. But I act like I like them. (It’s a beautiful thing)

I can’t wait to take pictures of her everyday

I can’t wait for her first Christmas, Halloween, Birthday, and 4th of July.

She loves to watch football with her daddy.

We love that she holds her bottle by herself and will occasionally grab your hand to help her hold it (when she’s super tired)

I love her laugh.

I love how she is already reaching for us and hates when we leave the room

I love the color of her skin.

I love her curly hair.

I can’t wait to take her sledding and one day drink hot chocolate with her

She is so good in her stroller; she just is quite and acts like she’s taking it all in one day at a time.

She’s already growing up so fast. The only thing is that pictures don’t always capture that perfect moment

She’s the only person that I don’t mind waking up in the middle of the night for.

She loves to touch and feel everything.

She loves when we read to her.

We love making fools of ourselves and making the most absurd noises and faces just to see what she’ll do and if she’ll laugh or not.

I love that her eyes are so brown that I can see my reflection in her eyes when I rock her to sleep. I just hope that one day my reflection is something she wants to be like.

I love when she wakes up in the middle of the night and when we come in the room she smiles, wants to play and thinks its morning. Not so much “sista” back to sleep!

She is so stinking strong, I love that she is sitting up and rolling over. She’ll be crawling probably within the next week or two. I just want to freeze time so I can enjoy a little bit of the baby stage.

I wish all of you could see her eat. I truly can’t get it in her mouth fast enough. If she could be on a strict liquid diet she would so it could cut down some of the feeding time.

Its amazing how for so many years I asked my self “WHY”, WHY do we have to wait to long, WHY aren’t we able to have kids? WHY can’t we have the one thing we are asked to do and be family? WHY does everyone who’s pregnant hate to be pregnant? WHY do some people say the stupidest things, and think for some reason Casey and I get it easy because we are adopting? WHY do some people take there kids for granted and not love ever minute? With all of those questions I asked for years and years, but in an instant I forgot the pain, I realized it is ALL worth it to hold her, feel her, to touch her, to watch her, It feels like all of that in the past is just that; in the past and yet I know Casey and I have learned so much about ourselves it was worth it, not easy but worth it.

Thank you all for you love and support, it truly has been amazing to see all of the love Olivia is surrounded by and how many people have prayed for her arrival. So thank you, thank you, thank you. And to show our thanks one day (when we can stand to leave her) we may call you to baby-sit!!!

By the way I am completely aware that this post is very “motherly” but “A”- I don’t care and “B” I’m saving these cheesy posts so on those rough days I can remember how sweet this is!!